All of You

You said thanks. But does it really mean anything? Do you appreciate all the trouble I have gone through for you? I really don't understand why I'm getting irritated by your insensitive, inconsiderate and indifferent self.

I didn't care before and why should I do so now? But I guess it has taken it's toll now... I hate to admit it but you're losing me... Not that I like that to happen. I do love you but whenever you do these things, it kills me a little... so much so that these little things take its toll on me.

And it's not just you... All these people who call themselves my friends are part of this shitty hole i've gotten myself into.

Celebrant 1, you have the nerve of trivializing one of the life altering encounters I had. How dare you judge me and add insult to injury? It is a wonder as to why I even bother to befriend you. You are a waste of time effort and concern. When your place falls again, it will sink into the abyss... with you!

Celebrant 2, I thought of you as a friend. I am mistaken... it's my fault. I assumed too much. Go to Hell!

Blue, yes, you! I remember you and I don't think I will ever forget you. For the wounded me owes you the same favor you have offered me. And just like you surprised me when you gave the gift, I too shall come in when you least expect it and offer you a more fitting present. You will relish every moment with it... You will never be the same again.

Devil Laugh, I have never liked you. If only i could offer you the sweet release of Sleep. Perhaps soon, you will come to taste it. And when it has come, you too shall pass!

Farther and Farther Away

Until when will we be like this: miles and miles apart from each other, open to all the dangers that loniless can bring about. My vision and plan for us are slowly fading... begining to look like a blur.

Didn't we want the same things before? What happened? Didn't you tell me that you wanted me to take you out of that forsaken place and keep you near me? Ssuddenly, nothing seems to be within reach. everything seems far away.

Tell me it isn't so. I want us to be together. Soon... not later...