Final Words

You ended it, not me...
i learned a lot from this whole ordeal. That I can give you all I can give but it would mean nothing to you.. that even if i give you true, loyal love on a silver platter, you are able spit it back to my face and take someone else's... that even after all the things i have done for you, you'd rather pick someone who has no respect for relationships and even calls you a whore to your face.
Let that man be the father of your children! Let that man be your beloved husband! If you wish to complicate your already complex life, do so and tell everybody about it.
I am done fighting, dar. I fought hard and fought well. but the one i was fighting for turned out to be fighting against me. If you cannot see how meaningful our relationship was, maybe you don't deserve to do so.
I don't deserve to be treated like this! And i never expected this from you! I was fine without you. You pushed me over the edge. Now, there is no turning back. I am not capable of undoing this mess of yours.
So, go to him! put closure to this. you have meant to leave me for him a long time ago! I will go my separate way and I will be just fine.

Dreams

Illusions of happiness
Seduce, flirt with my fancy
And evoke a restless feeling in the night.

It stops my walk
And claims the search is over.
I pause to taste the sweetness that was never really there.

The drifting images changed me
For the better, might I add.
And for that I am thankful.

Promises of a lasting seal
Allowed me to prepare myself
And straighten the crooked path I traveled so well.

But illusions are mere guides for fools,
Who have waited all their lives
For a chance to die in order to live.

It promises and directs
And will not stop… until it is time to awake,
Until daylight has arrived and the lonely morning begins.

Awake, I find nothing...
The empty world has nothing
To satisfy the void I feel.

I long to rest and turn numb once again
Where silence reigns and pain no longer exists,
To sleep, to dream and to drift away.